Inner Game

by Trigger. trigger at inner-game.info

  • The existence of shit disproves the existence of God (Kundera).

    Since evil is absurd, it makes no sense in a God-created world.

    In the real world (and the real world does exist, whatever the level, and you can't just avoid examining its existence by explaining away one measly level through a useless God-hypothesis) however, there is both Good and Evil, both pain and pleasure, both good and bad deeds, both light and darkness.

    The naive path is refusing to see the darkness. The cynical path is refusing to see the light. Both are the easy paths -- the hardest thing to accept is the coexistence of Good and Evil: on some scales it can be impossible to really grasp, in the same way that it's impossible to grasp the sheer magnitude of a world billions of people for someone programmed to live in a tribe, or grasp the size of the universe and the tininess of particles through a microscope. A field of vision has to be limited to a given scale. But not only is it the hardest thing to see, but it's also the hardest thing to accept: because it implies the very possibility of choice, and thus responsibility, morality, moral responsibility for the choices henceforth possible.

    So the first hard thing is seeing and accepting the existence of both. And then, you have to understand that Evil can't win: it's absurd. Evil can't even conceptually "win" because its destruction implies self-destruction: the void (then what?).

    Evil is a parasite of Good. Destruction needs creation, yet creation doesn't need destruction. Evil is weak and self-destructive. It keeps hiding behind good. But before losing, it can still do a lot of damage, and your moral responsibility is thus to help it lose, as soon as possible.

    And that's the other hard thing: once you accept the existence of both, you have to know one from the other, beyond, oh way beyond, the labels and the lies.

  • (see previous list)

    1. ο κόσμος είναι μεγάλος

      The world is big, big beyond our mismatched comprehension. Just counting all the people would take you over 200 years (7600000000/(365*24*60*60)). If you're blaming anything on "society" or think there are any "official rules", you don't get it.

    2. ¡hay mujeres!

      ¿Pero es que no lo entiendes, insensato? En el Planeta Axturias... ¡no hay mujeres!

      Contrary to planet Axturias, there are women on earth. Enjoy.

  • Caveat: this is not as much a criticism of the novel itself as rather that of a too superficial interpretation of the characters as perfect good guys versus evil bad guys.

    Howard Roark

    Philosophically, Roark is a mere hedonist. And he was guilty for blowing up Cortlandt. Let's see why.

    A careless hedonist

    You said yesterday: ‘What architect isn’t interested in housing?’ I hate the whole blasted idea of it. I think it’s a worthy undertaking-to provide a decent apartment for a man who earns fifteen dollars a week. But not at the expense of other men. Not if it raises the taxes, raises all the other rents and makes the man who earns forty live in a rat hole. That’s what’s happening in New York. Nobody can afford a modern apartment-except the very rich and the paupers. Have you seen the converted brownstones in which the average self-supporting couple has to live? Have you seen their closet kitchens and their plumbing? They’re forced to live like that-because they’re not incompetent enough. They make forty dollars a week and wouldn’t be allowed into a housing project. But they’re the ones who provide the money for the damn project. They pay the taxes. And the taxes raise their own rent. And they have to move from a converted brownstone into an unconverted one and from that into a railroad flat. I’d have no desire to penalize a man because he’s worth only fifteen dollars a week. But I’ll be damned if I can see why a man worth forty must be penalized-and penalized in favor of the one who’s less competent. Sure, there are a lot of theories on the subject and volumes of discussion. But just look at the results.

    -- Ayn Rand, The Fountainhead

    Now any rational person would conclude, after saying this: "this is a problem, a bad thing. I don't want no part of it, I don't want to be part of the problem, in the very least. In fact, I'd rather be part of the solution, doing the good thing: "providing a decent apartment for a man who earns fifteen dollars a week, but not at the expense of other men", and having fun doing it, and making a profit doing it. Indeed, why would I contribute to something that is inherently unjust, will not be in my long-term interest either, will in fact hurt both me and others in the long run, and do it for free, to boot?

    Unless of course... you only care about the fun you get out of the job. That is, if you're an irrational workaholic, not caring about the consequences of your actions, as long as you get what you want. Not caring, especially, about neither the personal nor the ethical implications of your actions: pretty much the level of self-preservation and morality of a drug fiend willing to hurt both others and himself - as long as he gets his hit right now.

    Roark seems to have no preference for what he's asked to build, by whom, for what purpose, for what pay - as long as he's allowed to design it his way and sees it being built, his way. That's pretty much his only two values - designing buildings, and seeing them built.

    Well, no, there's a third one. Another sign of his hedonism is undoubtedly the infamous rape scene. The novel suggests that it was Dominique Francon's fantasy - that she was consenting to the whole thing, but simply didn't communicate her consent explicitely to him. But what rational man would want to bet a rape charge on that?

    A шаражка architect

    Properly understood, Rand's characters are extremes of given characteristics - not actual real life models for full-fledged human beings. This is by design, it's precisely the power of her novels: by applying methodical consistency to characters' values pushed to unrealistic extremes, we can see what those values are. It's the pure definitions of black and white that help us identify shades of grey and which end of the spectrum they belong to.

    But those characteristics don't have to be moral values. Sure, an extreme version of a virtue should be a good thing. But enjoying your work, in itself, is neither a virtue nor a sin. There's nothing moral about doing well a job of tax collector or customs agent, or enjoying a useless "work" paid through tax money. Beware of definitions by non-essentials, intellectual package-dealings, and category confusions. A rational person should ask themselves these three separate questions when picking a line of work: is it fun for me? is it moral? does someone pay me for it (and how much)?

    What's moral about work is when it is part of a positive sum situation: providing value for value. Work, in itself, is merely anything you get paid for. This does not give it moral value. And in this case it's not actually even work Roark enjoys, it's more like a hobby of drawing buildings.

    And he has no moral merit, in it, either. He enjoys it. It just so happens that his enjoyment of it mostly serves other people. Had he had the same passion for, say, designing bombs, he would have made a career in designing bombs.

    What if he were asked to design a slaughterhouse? A prison? A concentration camp? What would be his objection towards designing concentration camps, while being in one himself ? Like a шаражка architect : unpaid, uncredited, and toiling for the evils of socialism, exactly like Roark for Cortlandt. Indeed, Toohey understood as much, perhaps understanding Roark better than Roark himself:

    Ellsworth Toohey did not look at the plans which Keating had spread out on his desk. He stared at the perspective drawing. He stared, his mouth open.

    Then he threw his head back and howled with laughter.

    “Peter,” he said, “you’re a genius.”

    He added: “I think you know exactly what I mean.” Keating looked at him blankly, without curiosity. “You’ve succeeded in what I’ve spent a lifetime trying to achieve, in what centuries of men and bloody battles behind us have tried to achieve. I take my hat off to you, Peter, in awe and admiration.”

    -- Ayn Rand, The Fountainhead

    What Toohey means is exactly this: Keating has achieved Toohey's own dream of enslaving creative men to work for no remuneration, no recognition, and toiling for the evils of socialism, against their own long-term interests. Except шаражка inmates were victims, dragged there by force, whereas Roark chose this through his own shortsighted hedonism: Keating's achievement is Roark's voluntary abdication of his own rationality.

    A man that lets things happen to him

    Voluntary indeed, for Roark did have other options. All he had to do was look for them, instead of merely waiting for others to come to him (movie fallacy #2). He could have drawn plans for a Cortland-style replicable development unit whenever he wanted (don't tell me this sort of design is dependent on the site... this ain't Heller's house), for instance during his out of clients periods, instead of merely waiting for the telephone to ring. Then he would only have had to find an investor among his friends and past clients -- he has them at that point.

    Of course, this is what ends up happening anyway:

    Roger Enright bought the site, the plans and the ruins of Cortlandt from the government. He ordered every twisted remnant of foundations dug out to leave a clean hole in the earth. He hired Howard Roark to rebuild the project. Placing a single contractor in charge, observing the strict economy of the plans, Enright budgeted the undertaking to set low rentals with a comfortable margin of profit for himself. No questions were to be asked about the income, occupation, children or diet of the future tenants; the project was open to anyone who wished to move in and pay the rent, whether he could afford a more expensive apartment elsewhere or not.

    -- Ayn Rand, The Fountainhead

    But mind you, at Roger Enright's initiative. Roark, on the other hand, seems to have no preference for what he's asked to build, by whom, for what purpose. He also gaily goes to build for Gail Wynand as soon as Wynand calls upon him, despite what his mentor Henry Cameron told him about the man, despite what Gail Wynand did to him and others -- since when is it a virtue to let immoral people get away with it? Indeed, Roark seems seldom to exercise any rational moral judgment, with the possible exception of Steven Mallory. He admits as much towards Keating:

    “Whatever I do, it won’t be to hurt you, Peter. I’m guilty, too. We both are.”

    “You’re guilty?”

    “It’s I who’ve destroyed you, Peter. From the beginning. By helping you. There are matters in which one must not ask for help nor give it. I shouldn’t have done your projects at Stanton. I shouldn’t have done the Cosmo-Slotnick Building. Nor Cortlandt. I loaded you with more than you could carry. ”

    -- Ayn Rand, The Fountainhead

    And even in his acknowledgement of guilt, he's being somewhat indulgent towards himself: did he ever ask Keating about his real career desires? He knew personally Keating's castrating mother -- did he ever consider telling Keating he shouldn't listen to her, move out and make his own life choices? Was he really thinking that he was helping Keating by ensuring him a fake career in a domain Keating didn't like and didn't choose? (Incidentally: Roark quite conveniently has no family, and especially, unlike Keating, no castrating mother to deal with...)

    No, of course, Roark was never helping Keating for Keating's sake, or for any higher value -- but merely because he had fun doing it. And why do Keating's projects, instead of some fun projects of his own (or indeed some actual work)? Why because Keating asked him to - again, picking the fun offered by someone, instead of checking his real options and evaluating them rationally and morally. At the very start of the novel, Roark says to the Dean:

    I owe you an apology. I don’t usually let things happen to me. I made a mistake this time. I shouldn’t have waited for you to throw me out. I should have left long ago.”

    -- Ayn Rand, The Fountainhead

    Well, throughout the rest of the novel, more often than not, he does let things happen to him, especially in what's most important to him -- his work.

    A terrorist?

    Roark didn't mind contributing to the reputation of Keating as an architect, even at Keating's expense. He didn't mind contributing to the socialist side in the debate of whether the government or private entreprise should build buildings. He didn't mind bringing into existence a project (after all, they were unable to find an architect until then) that was to be financed through taxation, and which he himself recognized as harmful both to the building industry and society in general.

    So through short-sighted hedonism and passivity, Roark entered a dishonest business, government housing, through a dishonest contract: he designed the building, not Keating, that's an objective reality. And then was angry that his dishonest contract wasn't respected by the dishonest people running said dishonest business (with whom he had no contract whatsoever to begin with)? Sounds like someone complaining about consequences of premises they fully accepted.

    So unless you want to mount a general defense of blowing up any and all government buildings (with what rational positive outcome expected to come out of it?), there really can be no justification for his actions. If he wanted his contract honestly respected, he should have made an honest contract with an honest businessman to begin with. If he wanted to just blow up government buildings, then still he had no valid justification for blowing that one in particular.

    Dominique Francon

    If Roark is quite consistent in his hedonist philosophy of life, Dominique is quite consistent in the opposite: seeking only to hurt herself, hurting others in the process, likewise not as en end in itself, but through sheer disregard for anything but her own goal of hurting herself.

    Cynic, pessimist, or cutter?

    Superficially, her behavior seems outright crazy. Digging sligtly deeper, it seems as a consistent application of a certain form of cynicism and pessimism that we all commit on much milder levels. Her pushing it to the extreme shows us how it's a bad principle to begin with. Yet digging even deeper, there's something else: consistent cynicism and pessimism don't actually imply being part of the problem.

    Like Roark not minding being part of the problem as long as he gets his fun, Dominique doesn't mind being part of the problem as long as she gets her suffering (a masochist's version of fun):

    “You’re not aware of them. I am. I can’t help it. I love you. The contrast is too great. Roark, you won’t win, they’ll destroy you, but I won’t be there to see it happen. I will have destroyed myself first. That’s the only gesture of protest open to me. What else could I offer you? The things people sacrifice are so little. I’ll give you my marriage to Peter Keating. I’ll refuse to permit myself happiness in their world. I’ll take suffering. That will be my answer to them, and my gift to you. [...] I will live in the world as it is, in the manner of life it demands. Not halfway, but completely. Not pleading and running from it, but walking out to meet it, beating it to the pain and the ugliness, being first to choose the worst it can do to me. Not as the wife of some half-decent human being, but as the wife of Peter Keating. And only within my own mind, only where nothing can touch it, kept sacred by the protecting wall of my own degradation, there will be the thought of you and the knowledge of you, and I shall say ‘Howard Roark’ to myself once in a while, and I shall feel that I have deserved to say it.”

    -- Ayn Rand, The Fountainhead

    Now I know the usual interpreation focuses on the pessimism of the start of the passage, but let's dig deeper:

    • "gesture of protest": towards whom? who's gonna know about it? who's expected to change his behavior as response to acknowledging her protest?

    • "What else could I offer you? [...] I’ll give you my marriage to Peter Keating." offer? this has no value to anyone, it's not something to "give". (Unless Roark had expressed such a sadistic desire; that is not the case.) The only result is to hurt all three people concerned -- the rest of the world couldn't care less.

    • "refuse to permit myself happiness in their world": you mean, hurting yourself with no benefit for anyone else, either? you expect a badge of merit for that? granted by whom?

    • "the world as it is, in the manner of life it demands": "the world" doesn't "demand" anything. There are simply some people who have expections of you that match your own values, and some people who don't. The rational thing to do is to associate with those who do -- unless you're a second-hander who wants the love of "everyone", and is irrational enough to consider it possible? There is no "official world stance", no "official" recognition, and especially, no official medals granted by "the world" for those who do what "it" demands. Because seriously, that's pretty much what she seems to be expecting here.

    • "kept sacred by the protecting wall of my own degradation" wtf?

    • "and I shall feel that I have deserved to say it" deserve? hurting yourself is not a virtue and does not make you deserve anything. Pain is not a virtue. Sacrifice is not a virtue. Unhapiness is not a virtue.

    The lesson from it

    We see that Roark and Dominique are quite the polar opposites, focusing respectively on his own fun and her own suffering. What they have in common is a certain consistency in seeking these aims.

    But consistent doesn't mean rational: it depends on what the premises are. Yeah, them premises Rand says you oughta check. There is no rationality in being consistent with an irrational aim. There is no virtue in being efficient and uncompromising in hurting yourself and others.

    What both seem to be sorely lacking is a better understanding of philosophy, especially about the morality of their actions -- a necessity which Ayn Rand would explain in Philosophy: Who Needs It, and provide to her next characters in Atlas Shrugged.

  • There are two reasons for studying something, be it a language, a technology, a degree, whatever.

    Wishing to learn and wishing to know.

    Wishing to learn is to enjoy the process, the journey. Enjoy the discovery process, enjoy every second of it. Even if you were never to use the final knowledge, it would still have been worth it.

    Wishing to know is wanting only the end result. The diploma, the paper. The line on the resume. The result of the knowledge, in fact, not the knowledge itself, and certainly not the way that led to the knowledge. That way can be painful, it can mean sacrifice. If you fail your final exam after years of study, or that knowledge gets invalidated, outmoded, outdated, then it was all for nothing. You'll have "wasted" your time.

    Of course, ideally, you should want and enjoy both. And sometimes you don't really have a choice.

    Yet, there are three things you can do to get it right:

    • pick your fields of study carefully based on the above;
    • hack your mind into enjoying the process, even if you started out for the results;
    • find ways of making the process fun and enjoyable, even if it usually isn't (if you're not learning (lernen [de]) but teaching (lehren [de]), that is of course your first assignment).
  • As usual, beware of false dichotomies, whenever the possibilities are (at least) three, yet people try to trick you into seeing only two. In order to criticize one option, and thefore trick you into the other as the only alternative. I hereby tentatively classify mankind into three broad categories:

    • Homo festivus
    • Homo calvinus
    • Homo sapiens

    As for the names, Homo festivus, we owe to Philippe Muray. Homo calvinus, inspired by Max Weber's theory of protestantism, as exemplified by Calvin. Alternative names are Homo ludens Homo faber / Homo laborans, Homo occupatus, respectively.

    As for Homo sapiens, or Homo creativus, it's the thinking man, it's what Man should be.

    In modern parlance: trolls, norms, geeks.

    How do you use your time?

    Only boring people are bored.

    – Mad Men

    The fake question here is: should you have free time?

    Homo calvinus answers: no. Busy your mind and body with work. Don't be alone. Don't have time to think. Get busy and tired! Fill your life with fake problems to solve.Homo festivus answers: yes! Busy your mind and body with party. Don't solve any problem! Don't be alone! Don't have time to think! Party all the time! Get drunk and wasted. Fill your life with social situations and petty amusements. Don't solve anything.

    The real question is: how do you use your free time?

    Homo sapiens answers: use your free time to do productive tasks you enjoy. To think. As extremes, spend your free time sending men to the moon, not picking up dog poop:

    JERRY: On my block, a lot of ah, people walk their dogs, and I always see them walking along with their little poop bags, which to me is just the lowest function of human life. If aliens are watching this through telescopes, they're gonna think the dogs are the leaders. If you see two life forms, one of them's making a poop, the other one's carrying it for him, who would you assume was in charge?

    – Seinfeld

    This is the future. This is what matters.

    If someone is willing to spend most of his free time accompanying a less-advanced species to the toilet, they do not get it.

    It's actually quite telling. You have 24 hours in a day. You're willing to spend, what, two of these walking out your dog. What does this tell about the value you place on your time, and thus about yourself?

    False dichotomy, again, in view to sex, as denounced by Ayn Rand:

    Observe the false dichotomy offered; man’s choice is either mindless, “instinctual” copulation—or marriage, an institution presented not as a union of ''passionate'' love, but as a relationship of “chaste intimacy,” of “special personal friendship,” of “discipline proper to purity,” of unselfish duty, of alternating bouts with frustration and pregnancy, and of such unspeakable, Grade-B-movie-folks-next-door kind of boredom that any semi-living man would have to run, in self-preservation, to the nearest whorehouse.

    What's your operational mode?

    These three types of people have their own favorite operational mode.

    Being bored and finding something to "kill time" vs lacking time to do all the things you want to do.

    /Homo festivusHomo calvinusHomo sapiens
    operational modepartysurvivalflow
    workslacking offhard workproductive work
    purposefunlaborknowledge
    valuesfun, pleasure, leisure, entertainmenthard work, sacrifice, labor, survival, occupationdevelopment, passion, growth
    yes or noyesnomu
    tribeblue tribered tribegrey tribe
    control overother peoplethemselvesnature
    people smarter than youderidebeatlearn from
    have kidsaccidentallydutifullyfor the good reasons
    moneyspendsaveinvest
    read/watchtvthe newsbooks
    win the lotteryspend all in a few months on partieskeep working, don't use the moneyuse the money to keep doing what you love
    religionsatanismprotestantismapatheism
    activitypastimesacrificeskill acquisition
    timeentertainmentworkdevelopment
    workpseudo-workhard workproductive, creative work
    productiondestructionoccupationcreation

    What are your values? What is your purpose?

    In conclusion, the main difference comes down to what your values are, and what your purpose is. Ignore the false dichotomies. Pick your values, stay strong in your frame.